What am I go to write about.........?????

I have been wanting to blog for a long time....But wasn't sure whether I would possibly be able to articulate my thoughts .......Should I start with recipes......Nah ....I am not sure whether I can do a good job at it....

Me Me Me

yeterday worked out fine ...I did 40 mins on ellipticals with interval training...the one which I googled in about.com..I restricted ..YES RESTRICTED ...my lunch to 2 cups of cooked quinoa and 1/2 cup of india green gram dhal...for lunch...I also did the same for dinner with 1/2 gilled fish and 1/2 cup rice

and 1 cup vegetables and 1 cup dal...I am taking it slow...thinking about it now seems like the 2 cups of quinoa is a bit too much...

I cant kill myself with unreasonable diets.....just by reading certain things I would assume...Not for me.....I wonder how I could go long

with laughing cow cheese and crackers for 3.5 hours....well I did go that long...its the first day ..So I did all of this...

I also did strength training for 30 mins....

My ellipticals at work are hard to work with ..I struggled to complete 40 mins of cardio...

Today had 1.5 cup of otameal+3 tsp of yoghut +i pack of salt

...added 4 oz of orange juice to it....

i have 2 coffee in the morning ...I shud cut past that ..

My lunch was 2 cups of cooked cauliflower and 3 Chapathi...

My killer time is between 4 to 7 ..i would gobble up anything and ething i come across..my kids snacks ..left over lunch...scoops of choco powders ....

my 2 great struggles are to excercise daily and to get over 5 -7 without mindlessly putting everything...

I have a pressing deliverable @ work which I need to work on....I am not sure whether I can do cardio today...

This is the enthusiasam I start with which would just vanish in a few days...This time I am going to take it to myself...I am going to take care of me and priortise my health over anything else...

155

This is not the first time that I tell myself that I am going to lose weight in my way..I have not stayed consistent with whatever I am doing..well for a fact ..I haven't tried any..I tried to lose my weight before i had my kids ...I lost 15 lbs ...but didnt keep track of my before and after weight...I dindt care whether I lost any or not...

I said to myself that I am going to gain the weight back after my pregnancy and so..on..My first son was born ....I dint gain or lose weight 155 shot up to 185 on the day of delivery and back to 155 on his first year ...I dint do anything to lose weight nor was i thinking...

in my second delivery I didnt gain any to lose any...I was at 164 lbs and back again to 155...this 155 is getting on my nerves ..i am tired of this number on my scale...I have to get rid of it from myscale. to stay in 155 lbs ever since I remember is awful....lets get rid of it from my scale...

Its not the weight ...its the number 155 i want to get rid of.....:) I am not going to go over it...

My New Year Resolution...

There is no good day to start my weight loss journey than today ..I am tired of being overweight for the past 13 years....I donno the last time I felt good about myself......I want to look good and feel good about myself.....So there is no day better than today ........because this is how my typical day is ...waking up late...not being able to skip my coffee......running behind my son to get ready .......and finally made it to work by 10......I know I am not proud of myself ......8.45 is my usual time....I have help from MIL so I am kinda getting lazy to do anything......I want to jot down on what goes in my mind...just to c how my brain is working and where is it going towards....So the agenda is this..I am going to try to lose weight and I am going to do it realistically ......I have been walking in the treadmill for past 2 days......:( I cant run I swear ....
the truth is I am 31 and I am in a very bad shape....So lets see..........